it's a sad week in Hawk Meadow...
my old man Gaston has been lame for a long time due to arthritis and cellulitis and he's been losing weight for some time now...and so we've decided it's time for him to move on...
it's so sad and he's the best horse i have ever had.
he's been alive longer then he should have been-we rescued him and gave him a second chance.
i'll miss him.
my family will miss him.
stanley will miss him.
he's one of the best and i'll never forget this gentle giant.
rest in peace cookie monster.

uhmm i'm done with school and we've only had 7 days of it.
it feels like a year already.
and i want outtt.
it's getting cooler out.
it gets darker faster.
the leaves are changing.
i love october, which is just around the corner.
i just hope we get to christmas break soon.
i miss staying up til 2 in the morning and not having to worry bout school in 4 hours.
damn....

yeah, summer's ending.
i hate my life.
5 days until school.
there's the end of my freedom.
of long nights,
sleeping in,
riding my horse early in the morning,
night swimming,
multiple day sleepovers with my friend.

yeah, this sucks...big timeee.

deviantart is a wonderful site and all, but some times when i see other people's art that is in the same category as my art, i can get extremely depressed. because usually their photography is so much better then mine, cuz they get to go places and they have the opportunity to go places other than in the USA. ALSO, they don't live in boring NJ. NOTHING is exciting in NJ...and it's not as pretty as Africa or a Greek island. plus, im trying to enter a photo contest, and the people who enter things have the most gorgeous photos in the world, and here i am with my freaking NJ photos...nothing is pretty here, and i feel like i have no chance at winning or even making it to the final whatever amount of people. so i'm in a DEEP depression, and don't know if i wanna enter into this contest or not...i guess i have nothing to lose and could be surprised at what happens, but i don't wanna get my hopes up...
this sucks.